Regretful tears of a woman prisonerby dominicpll ()It is generally agreed that people who have committed crimes should pay for them by staying in a jail. While 31-year-old Ani is willing to accept her punishment, her heart breaks whenever she thinks about the mistakes she and her husband have committed, resulting in their four children suddenly losing their parents' love. Similarly, whenever she thinks about her elderly mother having to take care of her four children, her heart is filled with guilt and sorrow. During an interview with Sin Chew Daily, Ani said she was missing her children dearly, and was feeling ashamed to her mother as well as apologetic to her former employer... Missing each of you every day My dear children, do you miss your mum just as much as I miss you? Can you imagine how mommy would look like after nine months of not seeing each other? Mommy knows that you could have thought dad and mum were so busy with our work that we could not make ourselves available by your side during festive season.You must be utterly disappointed, right? Please forgive me as I cheated you. I felt ashamed to tell you the truth that both your dad and I were actually serving our sentences in a jail. Having stayed in the women's prison for nearly nine months, it is a great torture for me to count the remaining days I still need to spend here. However, whenever I see that 14 December 2011 is getting closer by the day, I feel relieved. Perhaps your dad is missing you as well. I have heard from my mother that my eldest son, who now studies in Standard One, has made a vase for me on the last Mothers' Day. I was excited but also heartbroken as I was unable to give hug, kiss and compliment him for his good behaviours. Wait for me, mum How are you, my dear mother? Are you feeling exhausted taking care of my four children aged three to seven? We really feel sorry as you have to bear the consequences of our wrongdoing alone… What I can promise you is that I'll learn to become a person with right moral values while in the prison, and be a good daughter after I have come out so that you won't have to worry about me again. I'm getting along well now as I am required to attend the psychiatric therapy everyday to rectify my personal and social values as well as the sense of obligation. I am given time to make self-evaluation into the mistakes I have made and have learned to face and solve my problems. The most important lesson I have learned is to think about my future. Mum, I intend to take the children to Kuala Lumpur with me after I have finished serving my sentence. I will be a full time mother taking good care of them to make up for their lost love during this period of time. While my husband has also promised that he would be a good man after he is released from jail. He said he would put in all his effort to rebuild a happy family. What I can say now is that I truly hope you would take good care of your health and do not get too tired taking care of my children. We are indeed grateful and indebted to you. Committed crime together I still remember when my husband and I came down from Penang to work in KL so that we can provide a better life for the children. However after I gave birth to our fourth child, our expenses soared and we gave in to our greed and went against the law. We were previously working in a law firm and having a bright future. Because of our strong greed, we misappropriated company funds and were jailed for four years after my boss reported to the police. I believed my boss must be very upset as I was once his trusted secretary who have now betrayed him… I recently contacted my husband who is serving in the men's prison through phone. I requested him to send an apology letter to our former employer. Although we had no idea whether he would forgive us, we felt we owed him a sincere apology. (Translated by LIM LIY EE/Sin Chew Daily) |